Healing is Not My Decision

I have been thinking a lot about healing in recent months. Not so much physical healing, but emotional and spiritual healing. The healing that we all must experience when we realize who we are without Christ and allow Him entry into all aspects of our lives, the healing that only He can bring. I'm pretty sure that this is never an easy journey for anyone, but it's definitely harder for some than for others. It's also really difficult to watch people you care about struggle to find their own healing. It's a journey each of us must make, no one can make it for us, no one else can control it. For those of us who like to control, that's frustrating. As a very wise woman (my mom) told me, healing is not our decision, nor is someone else's journey to their own personal healing. We don't get to make the choice of if or when or how. That is in God's hands alone.

So, of course, for me, there's a song. For me, there's always a song. I've heard this song so much on the radio, but last night a new part of the words hit me, and I was compelled to look up the lyrics rather than assuming I knew what they were. They are good. The song is "Healing Begins" by Tenth Avenue North.

So you thought you had to keep this up,
All the work that you do,
So we think that you're good
And you can't believe it's not enough,
All the walls you built up
Are just glass on the outside.

So let 'em fall down.
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now.

This is where the healing begins,
This is where the healing starts,
When you come to where you're broken within,
The light meets the dark.

Afraid to let your secrets out,
Everything that you hide
Can come crashing through the door now,
But too scared to face all your fear
So you hide, but you find
That the shame won't disappear.

So let it fall down.
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground.
We're here now.

This is where the healing begins,
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark.

Sparks will fly as grace collides
With the dark inside of us
So please don't fight This coming light.
Let this blood come cover us,
His blood can cover us.

This is where the healing begins,
This is where the healing starts,
When you come to where you're broken within,
The light meets the dark.

We all have things we want to hide, tucked away from the rest of the world. We work so hard to keep them hidden that they take us captive. We become obsessed with what others might think if they only knew... But when we release all that baggage to the Ultimate Healer, He doesn't just take it away. He sets us free and buries our garbage at the bottom of the ocean, and covers us in His blood.

We are called to take His light into the darkest places of this world. But it starts within each one of us. The light meets the dark. And overtakes it. And sets us free to shine.